Pregnant in Bali
I'm leaving on a jet plane,
Don't know when I'll be back again.
I just kept singing that song, well those two lines (the only ones I know) over and over again--back in July, when I took off for Bali. I was newly pregnant, just 10 weeks out, and so I felt it was a bit risky, but something I had to do.It was a month-long deal, a teacher training intensive, and I was already missing my husband and dog and home. At least I was taking the unborn fetus with me.
When Will dropped me off at the airport, everyone was giving him dirty looks like he had beaten me up because I was crying so hard. HARD. It was actually kind of weird. But I had to do what I had to do, and yes, it was a good move.
The first peaceful "yes, you are doing the right thing" feeling came when I heard ole John Denver in a C-store in the airport. Just the song I had been singing all week. For some reason, when things like that happen, I know everything is all right, and I'm walking my path.
The second one came when I saw the scene above. An infinity pool overlooking rice fields that flanked the path that led to our yoga pavilion. And the third came when I met some wonderful people, including my roommate, Samantha from New York who is SO New York. I loved it. She actually never left Bali. She is still there. Although I wish I could talk to her, I'm happy she's being a gypsy.
I miss Sam, and I miss that room for some reason.
Outdoor shower--pretty awesome. Many of Bali's bathrooms are outdoors, nature creeping into your shower. I loved it.
And so, besides for the ENORMOUS geckos that were mating and reproducing on our wall, this outdoor bathroom was top 7 of my favorite things about this journey.
This intensive was a day-in and day-out deal plus homework at night. But we had a day off. A group of us decided to go to some beach somewhere. I had no idea where I was, but I had a fabulous time.
Just in case you wanted to see my feet in the sand.
Yogis pulling tricks.
I did not get out there and do tricky poses on a pool wall. My pregnant butt was already in mommy mode, taking pictures and being a cheerleader. "Beautiful Jess! Let's see it Ebonie!"
We got Canada, London, Sydney, New Jersey, California and Mississippi all representing at this random beach club somewhere in Bali.
Back to the intensive. It was intense. But I signed up for it. We worked hard. We did our best. We praised, we complained, we got confused, we got relieved, we got happy and then we got certified.
I had some wonderful yoga classes that will most likely remain top 10 in my life for me. I learned a lot of important things that have already improved my teaching. Still, it was the people who made this experience memorable and wonderful. Wouldn't have been the same without them.
I was like, "Am I safe down here? Keep it away."
At that point, I was not used to aggressive monkeys and had been attacked and was trying to watch my back.
It was like adult yoga summer camp. A long period of time, spending every waking hour together. Swatting bugs and swapping bug sprays. Enduring through heat, bad food and physical exhaustion. Homesickness and snacks and emotional breakdowns. Friends you make and love and wonder if you'll ever see them again. Crying when you leave them.
The thing about camp and conditions like these is that your friendships are on fast-forward. It's like friendship turbo mode. It's not that you want it to be like this, but there's a closeness there that naturally happens in these types of circumstances. Far away from home, there are so many emotions and feelings. You've got to lean on someone, and someone's got to lean on you. And immediately I think back to real summer camp at Riverview, where a bunch of pre-puberty girls swayed arm-in-arm, singing "Lean On Me," crying their little eyes out on the last night in front of a bonfire. Tribal victories won, ropes courses conquered, and we were all bawling like we did the first day.
So bittersweetly, we took hold of our passports and went on our gypsy ways (from Bali, not Riverview--I'm back in modern day).
And that's it. That's all I have to say.
Now go somewhere good and get on friendship turbo mode.